I probably shouldn’t write, but some days I need to write to process the stuff in my head. I’ve been feeling a little down lately, trying to just stuff it and not really identify what is in my heart. Tonight it kind of all came cascading out into the lap of my husband, who of course wants to help but doesn’t really know how.
I was just telling Chris that before I had the baby I was feeling pretty good, I felt like I was making progress with my weightloss, and now that the baby is here, I see pics of myself or see myself in the mirror and well let’s just say I have a hard time seeing what I see.
I know, the baby is only 1 month old. I know. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m 70+ lbs overweight and the scale is not moving downward, if nothing else it’s gone up. I know I’m nursing, and I shouldn’t push it, but this is my blog and I’m venting a little because I need to. It’s just a hard season. I’m tired of being overweight. Tired of having back problems and having pain all the time while trying to take care of my kids, keep the house clean, and prepare healthy meals for my family…
I need you tonight Lord to give me a fresh perspective. I need to see myself through your eyes, and through my husband’s eyes. Sorry if you’re reading this and it kind of crushes your idea of Jenni Burns who has it all together, I don’t. I have hard days just like everyone else.