Well the day has finally come, the midwife is on her way. I apparently have all my ducks in a row or maybe it’s more like, ready or not here she comes! I’m typing between contractions, and boy it’s hard to really remember how painful the real deal is!
I thought I was in labor last night, or really yesterday morning. I had several hours of consistent painful contractions. I was so sure that I even called my mom at 3:30am to have her make the 2 1/2 hour trip up to our house, only for her to come into a very quiet sleeping house, my contractions had come to a complete halt and I was NOT going to be having the baby. But Chris took the day off because I was still in labor when he needed to be at work and I needed him home yesterday. It’s always hard on mom when you think you are going to have the baby and then everything comes to a stop and you have to recover and deal with the disappointment. It’s hard because I don’t know, is it going to happen later today? Maybe tonight? Who knows, maybe she wont come for another week!
Well, we got through the day and as the evening started to come to a close I started having some good consistent contractions again (starting around 8:00pm), I was having them probably every 15 minutes or so. We had gone to mom and dad Burns to celebrate Carrie’s birthday (before the cake Chris and I left the kids there and went on a little date to Home Depot, the Mall to walk, and then Fred Meyer’s to get some milk.
Chris prayed with me and that seemed to really help settle my heart about the coming event. I’ve struggled so much with anxiety about labor mostly and the delivery as well. I know it’s just part of the battle in the mind and I have to take those thoughts captive.
So here we are. It’s 2:00 am, I started the real thing about midnight. The midwife is here and she just checked me and the baby, everything looks great. The baby’s head is really low, I’m about 4 cm dilated and 50% effaced. She said I can get in the tub when I’m about 5 cm so in another hour or so, and then I will call the rest of the family to come on by :) Mom and dad Burns will be here and Dee our neighbor, and possibly Carrie, and my mom is already here.
I can’t believe that I’m going to hold my daughter in just a few hours. I’m so looking forward to saying her name out loud! And I’m also really looking forward to not being pregnant :) Thank You Father for being with me. For blessing me with such an amazing man to support me during this time, I can’t even imagine doing this without my husband. Thank you for helping me with my perspective today. And thank you for the honor of giving birth to another covenant child, she is Yours, but thank you for placing her in my hands for a season.
Signing off for now, things are starting to get pretty intense and hopefully I’ll be getting into the tub soon :)