Lord’s Day tomorrow
September 13th, 2008 by Jenni
We are a little bummed that we wont be attending church tomorrow, because our little Cait had Hand Foot and Mouth this week and we are not wanting to expose anyone if she is still contagious, but I do want to say that she is doing MUCH better, it’s so nice to have our happy little sassy girl back! Tonight I was thinking about not attending, and I remembered something Aidan said last week when we were preparing to receive the Lord’s Supper. Pastor Dean was speaking right before communion about how we are “transformed” through the cross. Aidan leaned over to me and whispered excitedly, “he said ‘transformed!!’” Chris has let the boys watch a few episodes of “Transformers” and I think Aidan was impressed that pastor Dean knew about them too ;)
If only we could always view life through their eyes, I’m sure we would see life in a much more easy going, positive light. I love my children. Often at night when they are asleep I wish I could wipe away any anger I might have felt towards them during the day, they are so precious. Have you ever wanted to just go in and pick up your sleeping babies and hold them and show them how much you love them in spite of their disobedience that day? I do. Sometimes I really wish that I loved them with a perfect, unconditional love, but I know that though Jesus has transformed me through the cross, I’m a work in progress. I’m so thankful that His grace covers me, and my children, as we learn together to be more like Him.
Oh, Sis, that is so precious. I can’t say that I feel anger yet toward my son, he’s so little, but I wish with you. I wish that I loved my husband with a perfect, unconditional love. I’ve been doing a lot of praying lately about my love for my husband. He is so amazing to me and yet at times I can be so impatient, easily frustrated or short with him. I HATE it so much. But I know that by God’s grace and my diligence, I will be a transformed woman. I know that by faith I am already transformed, but he is also in the business of transforming. That’s our hope in Christ.
I love you so much, Sis. I love your transparency.
I also strive towards unconditional love and patience in my family life. Otherwise how can I expect my children to show such an attitude to others?
I hope Cait is all better soon - how long does it take to get over hand foot and mouth?
I so know what you mean about wanting to go in and hold your sleeping babies after a long and trying day! I often have that urge. It’s so easy to have a clear outlook on things when all is peaceful and quite. I wish I could have that clarity all the time.
I know exactly what you mean about wanting to hold them when they are fast asleep. It’s so true how you have that clarity after the kids go to bed like Melody said. Almost every night, when all is peaceful, I think of how excited I am about doing things for and with my girls. I just long to share my excitement about how much I love them and want to give myself more to them. Often in the morning I try, but there is so much to keep up with. Breakfast, potty, diapers, little attitudes, and so forth seem to get in the way all too often. I just want them to know how much I love them, and it’s so much easier to have room for those thoughts and feelings when you have time to think! And of course they are quite the little angels when they are sleeping peacefully in their beds.