So Far Behind
March 26th, 2008 by Jenni
That is how I feel right now. So far behind and totally unmotivated to catch up. No, I’m not depressed, just pregnant, nursing, and raising four small children.
I have tons of dishes to do, I have laundry all over my bed that needs to be folded and put away, my chickens are just surviving, my house is dirty, my kids are fed, my healthy raw food diet has pretty much gone out the window (I even bought corn dogs for the kids a couple weeks ago simply to give myself a couple meals in a week that I know I wouldn’t have to think about). Am I complaining? No. Just informing. Some of you have wondered where I’ve been. I’ve spent a lot of time sitting on the couch while my kids watch a movie, trying to catch a few winks before the baby wakes up. Sleep, I think about it a lot. These days are such a challenge, with four small children creating messes and with a mother who has NO energy to be picking up after them all day, and no energy to walk them through the process of picking it up themselves. Anybody want to come over an do my dishes? ;)
But, life is good. Except for the continual sleepiness and constant queasiness, life is great! My babies are getting older, learning more and more every day. Cait got some really cute squeaky shoes from nana Joan for her birthday (we had a party for all three of the kids on Saturday), and I think those shoes just might encourage her to want to walk. Up until this point she has had absolutely zero interest in learning but with those little squeakers she just might decide that she wants to squeak them! And then again maybe not :) She could care less that she is almost a month and a half behind her siblings in when she starts to walk, and I’m with her, I’m not anxious for her to become even more mobile than she is :)
Well, so life is slow for me right now. I’m giving myself another month to being behind. I’m 8 1/2 weeks pregnant and about 2 1/2 weeks of the sickies to go. I’ve been counting down the days! I’m anxious to see my midwife again because that will mean I’m past the hard part and into the fun part of pregnancy. Well, I better get going, I’m pretty wiped out! Bless you all, thanks for checking in on me even though I haven’t really been here :)
Oh, I really wish I could come over, bring you a batch of cookies, see you put your feet up and do some of those tasks which niggle at you, even when you’re too tired to do them yourself! Unfortunately, Cardiff, UK is a bit of a distance from where you are and I haven’t perfected my teleporting device just yet!! (I’m working on it though - would make my life so much easier if I could almost be in two places at the same time!) Stick in there, you’re doing a great job and things will get easier in a month or so.
Jenni! I know how you’re feeling! But I have SO much respect for you because you are raising 4 kids in the middle of the constant nausea and dirty house! :o) I keep counting down the days too! Your kids are lucky to have a mommy like you. :o)
Thank you Jennie, I’m sure that we would love to have you come over to help out with housework :) But you’re right, the UK is a bit far off! The thought is what counts, I’m sure my house will be clean again soon!
Thanks Julia :) I remember those days of being pregnant with my first and wondering how in the world I would ever do it with children! It’s possible just not always easy. Eamon was disappointed yesterday when I was not in bed when he woke up, so this morning I took that as my license to stay in bed as long as possible :) Those little ones love to snuggle with mama! He told me that he would still snuggle with me when he grows up to be a mommy, and a daddy ;)
You know what I love about reading your blog, it’s that no matter what you are going through or how crazy life gets sometimes, you always end things on a positive note. Someday your kids will look back and realize how blessed they are to have a mom like you. I think just the fact that you are able to get out of bed in the morning, with four kids and another on the way is truly amazing!! :)
Jenni, I haven’t gotten a chance to congratulate you on your pregnancy! Isn’t God good? I’m sorry your not feeling well, and hope that it passes soon. But, your right. It’s ok to just hang out with your kids for a while until your over the “sickies” as you put it. So, congratulations and enjoy the movies.:) -Shannon
It’s okay…then I don’t feel so guilty for not always staying current on your blog. It’s so hard for me to find time to spend on the computer. I can’t believe you’re that far along already. Time just flys right on by. My boy is 8 months old. It’s just unreal. What a blessing it is to be able to invest in there precious little lives. Well my forms are done printing so here I go…back to figuring out our taxes. The 15th is coming right up!