Tired, sick, and blessed
March 8th, 2008 by Jenni
When I first found out I was pregnant a couple of weeks ago, I was a little apprehensive to feel very excited in light of the recent miscarriage last October. I was already feeling tired (like “pregnancy” tired not just “I stayed up too late” tired), but not sick yet which is normal for me at 4-6 weeks pregnant. So this past Monday I packed up the kids and made the trip to see my midwife to get blood work done to check my progesterone level, low progesterone can cause you to miscarry. I guess I felt like if I was going to be going through another miscarriage I wanted to know so I could prepare my heart for it. Then a few days ago, I had started feeling sick, and I was feeling pretty good about this pregnancy even thought I hadn’t heard the results from my midwife (my levels were good by the way), I was on my way home from the store and I had this thought, “I am going to have another BABY!” I realized that I had not even really allowed myself to think about having a baby, I was just “pregnant” in my mind, I guess I was protecting my heart.
Even though it is hard to be sick all day, and tired all day. I somehow welcome these symptoms as every time I feel them I am reminded that this little baby is growing strong within me, and will indeed be a wonderful blessed little baby! What a joy, what an amazing miracle! So, six weeks down and only 34 to go! Wow, that sounds like a long time, and that is fine with me, I could use a little time to prepare for another little one :) Well, I better get going, I think I’m going to fall asleep, I’m SO tired! Good night :)
PS. Thanks so much for all the comments this week and the congrats on our new baby on the way. It’s so great to have so many enocouraging and supportive people in our life. We feel so blessed! I do appreciate your thoughts and prayers over these next 6+ weeks as I get through this first part of the pregnancy, it’s very common to be sick and tired the first trimester, but it’s certainly different with four little ones at home than it was with no little ones (I didn’t know how good I had it back then! ;)
congrats. i had an urge to check on you tonight and now i know why. praying for you !!
Jenni,
God is so wonderful allowing us to see the truth in the midst of the fight! Thats right you are having a child and that is how you need to look at it. Let God deal with the rest low progesterone and all is not your worry! Your womb is blessed your houseband adores you, your children are in need of you and God is big!
Love you so,
Kelley