Tender Eamon
September 18th, 2007 by Jenni
I clean an office for an hour on Monday nights, it’s actually a nice time to get away for me. When I don’t have any extra errands to do I just leave after the kids have gone to bed, but last night I needed to go to the grocery store as well so I had to leave before we tucked the kids into bed. Chris is amazing, I don’t know many dads who would let their wife leave him alone with four kids, four and under! Cait is usually still awake when I leave, but fed and ready for bed. He puts all the kids in pj’s and does, song/prayer/story time all by himself. Is he amazing or what?! What’s funny is that just two years ago he wouldn’t have been brave enough to do that by himself with just two kids :)
Anyway, back to my point. I was kissing the kids goodnight and Eamon was begging me to stay with this look like, “How could you leave us! Don’t you love us?!” I held him and reassured him that I would only be gone for a short time and that he would hardly even miss me. I was just closing the door behind me and Eamon ran up to the sliding glass door and said to me desperately, “Mommy, make sure you don’t crash!” I can see the look on his face and it makes me well up with tears as I can hear his sweet little tender voice making sure that mommy is going to be sure to come back to him. I said, “That’s right Eamon, mommy wont crash.” How could I? You know, every time I leave my kids behind I have to tear myself away and drown out the thought, “what if this is the last time I see them, what if those poor sweet babies have to grow up without a mommy?” No, you are going to be okay Jen, stop thinking those thoughts. And every time I get back safe with my babies I subconsciously breathe a sigh of relief. Am I crazy or what? I love my babies, they are just so precious to me.
It’s nice to know I’m not the only one that has such crazy thoughts!
Jenni, I too have thoughts just like that when I leave my little girls. I pray when I leave them and sigh in relief and just appreciate that I have them when I return. It’s a catch-22, cause it’s so nice to have a break sometimes, but so hard to be away too!
Oh, what a little sweety! I love my darlings so much too, but usually I end up worrying more about what if something happens to them, rather than what if something happens to me…
I’m so grateful to have God watching over my children, since I know that there is only so much I can protect them from!
God bless you and your sweet family, Jenni!
Thanks for the encouragement ladies, it’s nice to know I’m not alone in my worrying, whether it be for them or me. But it’s also so great to know that we can leave in peace knowing the our children and their mommies are in the loving hands of the Father. I think I would go nuts if I didn’t know that truth!